For better or for worse...

...this blog has become the diary that I have never had before. I had always meant to keep a diary, I had big plans to start one, but, let's face it, I was just lazy - or maybe I just didn't want to know what I had to say, who knows?.  My promise to ya'll has kept me more honest regarding putting my random thoughts to "paper" than anything has before.

The problem is, I promised ya'll a "Living, Loving, Alive, Adventure".  However, some days, I am just downright depressed.  Like, right now, I am seriously trying not to cry.  My job is so stressful some days. I spent 9 straight hours today feeling like I was having a nervous breakdown.  Shaking, shallow breathing, freaking....smoking.  Yes, I've been smoking all week.  Only one or two a day, but still.  I've been chewing nails, too. 

I have 2 employees that are moving on...both for perfectly valid financial reasons.  I have come to rely on my people so much, mostly because I pick the very best.  Intelligent, funny charmers who make the job so much easier.  It was already a very rough week and this news just makes it so much worse.  I hope they know just how much I appreciate them.

~Jenn