Look, none of us are 100% sane. We all have our own issues, needs, misconceptions, and paranoias. All of us fear growing old alone, living a life lacking meaning, or not having personal security.
However, to watch someone implode their own life, to see them rip asunder everything they have worked for over many, many years, all due to their own paranoid fantasies, is one extremely depressing sight to have to witness. It's manifest destiny....you are so obsessed with the idea that someone close to you is going to stab you in the back that your very actions of mistrust force everyone you know to turn on you. You absolutely cannot treat people horribly and then ask them to love you for it. You have to realize that when the only common element in all of the problems is YOU, then YOU must be the damn problem.
There is something that I care very deeply about that is being destroyed before my very eyes, and I am helpless to stop it. All I can do is try and keep the damage to a minimum, not only to that thing that I love, but also to the folks that I care about who are involved. But, even I can only take so much for so long. All of the excuses that I make, and the deep empathy that I feel, will only stretch so far before I, too, must move on to more positive pastures.
~Jenn
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I've seen it happen to sooo many people myself over the years. Heartbreaking...I once heard that if there is no way to help with your hands fall to your knees (as in pray). It can't hurt!
ReplyDeleteThanks Cin, you're right, it can't hurt! :)
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