Relax. Reeelaaaxxx.

My good friend Judy reminded me that all of my to-do lists and plans mean absolutely nothing if I can't relax and enjoy the ride.  That is so true, but occurs to me that I have completely forgotten how.  I have had exactly one week of vacation in three years.  My whole life has turned into: 1.  What do I need to do.  2.  What am I not doing.  3.  How can I do it better.

Sad.  I have completely forgotten how to just be - right here, and right now, in the moment.  It has lead to where I am now - tense all of the time, anxious, nervous, never truly happy or satisfied, and every muscle wound as tight as a drum.  My shoulders and neck feel like they are ready to snap into pieces.  Hell, even the things that are supposed to be relaxing have become a chore.  I actually get uptight if I haven't read through Facebook, or posted here on the blog.  I promise you I am not a type A personality, so where this is coming from I have no idea.  I guess one of my first tasks is to find out and let it all go.

The first order of business is to learn how to breathe again.  To learn to just sit and enjoy whatever I am doing, wherever I may find myself.  To turn off, shut down and listen to the beautiful silence.  To find my soul again. 

Thank you, Judy, for the very timely reminder.   <3

~Jenn