I have spent most of today both out of it, and on the verge of tears. I am such a crazy, effed up mixture of relieved and tired, my psyche and body don't know what to do. For so long I feel like I have held myself together with the psychological and physical equivalent of chewed up gum and a toothpick.
I am now on the cusp of getting real, honest-to-god medical help, as well as a little time off affording me some space to get my shite together. I have been so strung out, for so long, that I will have to be very careful not to completely fall apart after next week.
The first orders of business are:
- Quit smoking. Again. (Yes, again). Like, next weekend.
- Getting my Amour thyroid levels right
- Addressing the adrenal fatigue
- Once 1 - 3 are under way, I should hopefully have enough energy to work out again
- Eating ONLY whole, healthy, organic foods
Once I feel like a human being again, and somewhat like Jennifer Lester again, it will be time to figure out what the hell I wanna' do with my life. I hope that includes, in some way, helping others who have found themselves in that same bad, dark place that I have been in. I would love nothing more than showing others the way out of the darkness.
~Jenn
I think you have number one wrong, Jenn. It should be: take a deep breath, stretch, relax every muscle in your body, close your eyes and experience how your body feels.
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I'm glad there's finally light at the end of your tunnel.
Thank you, Judy, you have given me my next topic...
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