It is beyond my realm of understanding how some people can stand being so eternally negative. The kind of folks who lay down fields of negative energy that smother all light, creativity and personality until everyone they encounter feels that their very breath is caught in a morass of panic. There is never a positive side. The glass is never half full and no one ever does a good enough job to be recognized or thanked.
I have been told before that I am "empathic". It sounds like a crazy superpower, when all it really means is that I am extremely sensitive to people's energies. I pick up moods like a human tuning fork. This is great around positive, happy people. It is pure hell around miserable folks. I practically vibrate with nervous energy - biting nails, shaking, ulcers, trying to keep them happy, trying to keep the black evil eye from looking directly at me or those I care about. I internalize all of it and it eats at me from the inside out.
Much like the abused girlfriend who keeps ending up in bad relationships, I have consistently had at least one negative person in my life (if not more) for the better part of the last 20 years. That speaks to a personal issue that must be resolved - why do I continue to attract that energy into my life? Why does it happen over and over, and why in the world do I put up with it for so long?
In the meantime, I truly look forward to a time when my life will be clear of such disharmony, as I will be able to breath and laugh again with ease.
~Jenn
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Uh huh...I have got that same problem! The worst and saddest thing for me is that my parents are lately, not ON, but DRIVING, the bad vibes bandwagon!!! Stop the happy people bus- I want on!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteOh girl, I know what you mean. My mom can be so negative sometimes. Drives me crazy! Life is too damn short for that. :/
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