Stressssssssss.......

As an appropriate companion piece to yesterday's "I would really rather be asleep" blog, tonight I figured I should tackle sleep's public enemy #1 - stress.  Mostly because today was extremely stressful, and I wanna get it off my chest.

Sometimes I seriously wonder why I have always taken management positions.  I have been some variation of "The Buck Stops Here" almost since I first entered the workforce.  For some, this is the natural position to be in.  These shiny, strong-chinned wonder-leaders feel right at home making the decisions, leading the folk and taking the flack.  Not I.  If I'm honest, I hate stress.  I would rather the buck sail right on by to the next desk while I surf on Facebook.  I like to laugh, and joke, tell stories, create, doodle, sing and generally act a fool.  I'm not what they call a "natural born leader".  I don't know that I could cajole or even bribe someone to follow me out of the foxhole.

So, how is it I end up in the front of the boat, every time, leading the kids across the Delaware?  How is it that success has followed me from one job to the next?   I really don't know.  Maybe because I have a great eye for wonderful people.  Maybe because I make sure they know I appreciate every effort they make.  Maybe because they know that I will never ask them to work harder than I do, or to do something I won't.

In the meantime, though, leading has always felt like I was stuffing my square self into a round, unforgiving and stressful hole.  I hope someday I can reconcile myself to it.

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Workout today - happy to be back to it, though it was a little short - 20 mins rather than 30

Jenn