The title has a dual meaning. The first is literal - I have had something wrong with my lungs for 8 or 9 weeks now. It is really, really weird. I have an occasional dry cough; some (but not much) phlegm; and almost every day I hit a tired patch when my chest feels like it has a 10 pound weight on it. I almost feel like I'm trying to breathe through a straw.
The second meaning is that I'm telling myself to relax, to try not to think the worst, and to philosophically take a deep breath. I have a serious fear of death. I can't tell you how many times over the years I have convinced myself that I'm dying because of a strange, random pain in my right buttock (well, you know what I mean). I have heard about a hundred too many stories that all start with "If only she had gone to the doctor sooner...". It's like my psyche's version of the scary campfire story.
Between crying wolf a few too many times, and being utterly broke with no insurance, I have tried (hard) to ignore how I feel. But, at what point do you decide that, damn the torpedoes, somebody needs to do something about this?
In the meantime, until I make that decision, I'll be over here trying to take some deep, cleansing breaths...
~Jenn
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Asthma. Trust me.
ReplyDeleteWow! Really? I hadn't even thought of that. You can get that this late in life?
ReplyDeleteGo figure - just when I am quitting smoking more successfully than ever, watch me trade it for asthma. lol!
Thanks Judy! *hugs!*
Does sound like asthma but I would get it checked out! Asthma attacks used to put Kyle in the hospital, very scary, so don't let it go on too long. There are other issues that cause the same symptoms (please know that I am a nursing school DROP OUT- just care about you Jenn)!!
ReplyDeleteI had problems 10 years ago and was just diagnosed again a few months ago. I was coughing and having extreme problems working out.
ReplyDeleteYou know you get everything I have, so go get it checked!
Thanks Cin. I may have to break down and get myself checked out this weekend. Is Kyle better now?
ReplyDeleteWell, that's all you had to say, Judy. If you had it then I am destined. lol! Has it gotten better, I hope?
ReplyDeleteHe does ok now, it's not as severe. He always wanted to play sports but it used to cause problems. I have trauma from watching him sit in the chair with his lips turning purple as he tries to weeze in a breath. NOT something to ignore til it gets to that point. Promise?
ReplyDeleteOh my, I can't imagine watching someone I love go through that! :( I promise I'll get it checked out, maybe even tomorrow. Thanks! *hugs!*
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