Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Nothing. Left. To. Give.

Seriously.

I am sick.  Again.  I am sick of being sick.  I'm sick of bitching about being sick.  I feel like I've been sick for 6 months.

Maybe I have, I've lost track. 

The inability to take a full breath is back.  Hot and cold flashes, sweating, not sleeping, exhaustion, almost constant headache and every muscle, in my entire body, hurts.

I actually told my boss this today:  "I want you to know that I don't feel physically capable of running this place right now.  I have been sick, on and off, for months.  I don't know what is wrong, but I am having a nearly impossible time concentrating on everything I need to do."

Pretty stupid thing to say with double-digit unemployment, huh?

I really do feel like I'm falling apart.  And, on my way down the cliff, I feel like every one around me is trying to suck out every last little bit of me, every effing last shred, that I have left. 

All I want to do is crawl in bed, for about a month straight, pull the covers over my head, and rest. 

~Jenn

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